During an interview, Diddy broke out into tears as he talked about celebrating his first Mother’s Day without Kim Porter, the mother of his children.

It’s been about five months since the passing of Kim Porter and Diddy is still grieving as if it just happened yesterday. And with Mother’s Day approaching this weekend. He’s sad more than ever.

During an interview with Essence podcastYes, Girl!, Diddy became noticeably emotional as he talked about the late mother of his children. This will be Diddy and his family’s first time celebrating Mother’s Day without Kim and he opened up about the pain he’s expecting to feel on the holiday.

“They say time heals all wounds, but when it comes to your mother, I don’t think that’s the case,” Diddy said in the audio release.

He continued to open up about his true feelings for Kim and revealed if he regrets what happened in their relationship:

”I wasn’t being honest, all the way, honest with my love for her, to myself, and even to other people that I was in a relationship with. I don’t have no regrets how things went; They went the way God wanted them to go. But I was playing with love and it’s not really to be played with. I definitely took for granted that she would just be with me forever. I took for granted that something like this could happen.”

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