Throughout the years, Kesha has gone on a journey that she has allowed fans to take with her. Once the ultimate singer of party anthem songs, to now singing with all of her energy about her struggles and overcoming them, Kesha been down many emotional paths in life. Even in her relatively young life, she has transformed over time.

Some changes have been obvious. For example, she changed her name from “Ke$ha” back to Kesha. Other changes have required a need for treatment and self reflection that took time.

As she has gotten older, she has shared these struggles with the world, working to be at peace with herself and others. With already quite the story to tell, let’s take a look at the beautiful transformation of Kesha and where she is today.

Her childhood relationship with her mom was all about the music

Music was a passion for Kesha from a very young age. According to Rolling Stone, the star knew she wanted to be a singer since she was 2 years old. And rather than treat it as a young kid’s dream, Kesha’s mother was fully supportive and would make it sound like a fact that Kesha would one day have a music career and have a record label.

Being a singer as well, Kesha’s mom would write music and sing with her daughter about all sorts of topics. Kesha described this to Rolling Stone, saying, “even, like, if we were in a fight about my room not being clean… all of a sudden we would leave the bulls*** at the door, and we would get in a room with a piano and a guitar and write the most sincere beautiful music. You really can’t front when you write with your mom.”

She saw herself as an outcast growing up

Kesha had a difficult time with the other kids in school. She wasn’t “normal” and was called out for this. As the singer told Rolling Stone, “I re
fused to conform and they refused
 to be nice.”

The bullying became so bad that she began to eat lunch in the bathroom at school in order to avoid the other kids. Even years later, this feeling never went away. Kesha discussed being at award shows around other big stars, saying, “I just felt like so the outcast, the same person sitting at the lunch table.”

The singer found success with songwriting for other musicians

Kesha’s success with music began with helping others create their musical visions. In her early 20s, Kesha wrote songs for many different artists; many of these songs reached some major success.

It’s just a guess, but there is a good chance that many fans don’t know that Kesha is the lyricist behind some of these hits. According to Billboard, this success includes Flo Rida’s 2009 song “Touch Me” and Miley Cyrus’ “The Time of Our Lives.” She also wrote songs for top pop stars Britney Spears and Ariana Grande.

But aside from the world of pop, Kesha showed her range and moved into other styles of music as well. This includes “What Baby Wants,” sung by Alice Cooper, which displayed her skills with rock-n-roll songwriting as well.

She was told to make her first songs more “dumb” and “stupid”

In the midst of finding success as a songwriter for others, Kesha — or as she labeled herself then, Ke$ha — found her own success when in 2010 her record Animal was released. As the New York Times reported, this album ended up going platinum in the United States.

But even with this success, the 23 year old had some struggles with the album. While she did indeed want to sing about partying and having a good time, there was no balance in her music. She described to the Times the comments she received from her producer Dr. Luke at the timing of Animal. She said, “I remember specifically him saying: ‘Make it more dumb. Make it more stupid. Make it more simple, just dumb.’ … I was like, O.K., ‘Boys try to touch my junk. Going to get crunk. Everybody getting drunk,’ or whatever, and he was like, ‘Perfect.'”

Kesha struggled with this lack of balance in the content of her music. She wanted to show the vulnerable side as well, but became known for this party girl persona. She continued, “You can go and have a crazy night out, but you also, as a human being, have vulnerable emotions. You have love.”

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